Contemplating

We all do this from time to time. 3:

I realised I haven't been writing down much of my thoughts lately, and that has the implication that I'll forget it all. And much of that has already happened...then again if I have already forgotten I wouldn't even know this.

A lot of things in life has changed in the last... let's just give a logical time span of six months. I haven't really met any new people nor have I gotten closer to anyone. Life's just bobbing along, working, trying to rake in moolah and wondering what I am going to do about the rest of my life.

Uni is about to start next week, and I can't really conclude what I have learnt anything supremely substantial during the quiet period of time that I had during my deferral.

One thing for certain tho, I would have definitely failed if I didn't defer. A lot has happened... I've also been a lot of things during that time, ranging from a liar, a tease, a shit stirrer, a girl on probation, an emo, a "grandma", a dream, a reality, an ex-commerce student, a fx counter girl, a lost person, a sit-up doer, a fatty, a moron, an artist, a writer, a naive person, a troll and eventually getting there one day, a decent girlfriend.

That would be a good goal to start with.

Perhaps it's relief, but I'm finally settling in with life again. Although that is disregarding the blatant rule breaking and being a disobedient child at home, I'm slowly finding a balance.

It's a bit of a shame that it took this long to work things out, but I am content in the equilibrium that I am in now. Knowing what I should be doing rather than doing what I thoughtlessly do.

I think a lot, just not about the right things. It's just a destructive lesson to learn how much my actions can affect someone else.

I did take a long time to put appropriate emphasis on what we have. It is very awesome and it is something I would cherish indefinitely. Life is very much not a fairytale and we are long overdue in our honeymoon period. But you are a reality that I find comfort in.

In what we do, in how we act and in all the things you have taught me. I sincerely do want to be a better person for the both of us.

It's odd I started rambling on about general things. Then it all ends up back on talking about a person. I hate quoting mushy love quotes because they are all over someone else's blog.

But there is one particular one that is floating around in my head right now because it's coincidentally appropriate...

"To the world you might be one person, but to one person you might be the world" - RUSSIAN REVERSAL!

It's so cheesy. But you are in fact my world at the moment... if not an entire universe.